Synopsis:
Jake has fallen head over heels in love with Dandelion. There’s just one problem. Dandelion is dead.
Poppy discovers unanswered messages from a charming stranger in her late sister’s dating app and makes an impulsive decision. She’ll meet him — just once — on what would have been Dandelion’s fortieth birthday. It’s exactly the kind of wild adventure her vivacious sister would have pushed her toward.
Jake is ready to find something real, not least because his ex-wife’s twenty-something boyfriend has moved into their family home. When he meets the intriguing Dandelion, their connection is undeniable, and he finds himself thinking of little else.
Their relationship deepens and Poppy finds herself trapped in a double life she never intended to create. Every moment she spends with Jake feels genuine, electric, and totally right, as though their connection was meant to be. But they’re tangled in a web of deceit.
As the lines between grief and love blur, Poppy must choose to keep her sister’s memory alive through her lies . . . or risk everything for a chance at her own happiness.
Dandelion Is Dead, the debut novel from Rosie Storey, is a contemporary love story about the courage it takes to live fully again after loss . . . and finding hope in the most unexpected places.
Review:
Author Rosie Storey holds a Master’s degree in creative writing and works as a writing coach. Around 2018, she left her corporate career “and trotted into the darkness, naively believing I was about to become a novelist. I went on to write nine drafts of a book that would never be published.” When she finally let that book go, she was inspired by the idea of remaining true to oneself when people lie so readily. Dandelion Is Dead “opened up in my mind like a wildflower.”
Dandelion Is Dead is a unique, imaginative, and contemporary story about surviving loss, grieving, and finding happiness again in a world that a loved one no longer inhabits. It is also an exploration of the complex and mysterious relationship of two sisters with vastly different, distinct personalities.
Storey has crafted a charming, deeply touching story populated with flawed, empathetic — if not always likable — and believable characters The conclusion may be foreseeable from the very first page, but discovering how Storey steers her characters toward it is a captivating and enjoyable experience.
As the story opens, Dandelion has been dead for two hundred and thirty-one days. A hedge fund manager by age thirty-five, she willed her London flat to Poppy, her younger sister. So far, Poppy has locked the door of the bedroom that was Dandelion’s and contemplated getting the flat ready to rent. But she’s really not ready to do that yet, as evidenced by the fact that she spends time there by herself, frequently carrying on conversations with the departed Dandelion. At thirty-seven, she is a successful photographer and has been in a relationship with Sam for five years. She anticipates an engagement soon, although Sam has not yet proposed. He is apparently waiting until after the first anniversary of Dandelion’s unexpected and devastating death.
When Poppy’s cell phone is destroyed, she goes in search of Dandelion’s — which has never been restored to its factory settings. All of Dandelion’s texts, photos, and apps are as she left them, and Poppy begins perusing them for the first time, her “grief . . . a starvation.”
Looking through the dating app Dandelion used, Poppy realizes that “her sister lied a lot, which was no surprise.” She finds a message that was sent to Dandelion by Jake more than a year ago. Dandelion never responded. Jake wrote, in part, “I can feel your heat.” Jake’s photos are unusual. In one, he is seen playing with his three-year-old son. She feels Dandelion nudging her and before she knows it, she is replying to Jake as Dandelion, rather than herself, concluding the message with “I’m back.”
Jake and Poppy, posing as Dandelion, agree to meet. She tells herself it will be a one-time occurrence — “an escapade” on what would have been Dandelion’s fortieth birthday. Of course, they are attracted to each other – there is “undeniably a vibe.” But Poppy is playing the role of Dandelion, adopting her style and personality, which causes her to wonder which sister Jake is really attracted to. And Poppy knows she can’t continue the charade. It isn’t fair to Jake, Sam . . . or her. She isn’t Dandelion and never will be. All her life she has felt as though she lived in Dandelion’s exceedingly long shadow – less confident, less mischievous, less successful, less vivacious, less desirable. And Dandelion did not like Sam, finding him “snide and basic,” which was a source of conflict in the sisters’ relationship. Of course, “the only person whom Poppy would be able to discuss Jake with was Dandelion. Her silent coconspirator. Poppy would do anything to be able to call her sister. To hear her actual voice out loud in the world again on the other end of the phone.”
At forty, Jake is divorced and living in a flat that can generously be described as modest, even though he could afford a nicer home. His ex-wife, Zoe, lives with their son, Billy, to whom Jake is completely devoted, in the house they once shared as a family. He carries the guilt and remorse of being responsible for the failure of his marriage, and is lonely. “I certainly failed at being the man I hoped to be,” he admits. After just that one date with Poppy, Jake is enchanted . . . and hopeful that their initial meeting can blossom into something more.
Not all lies are terrible and sometimes they are a way of getting closer to the truth. Sometimes, lies are necessary to stay alive.
As the “will they or won’t they” story proceeds, Storey examines the demons that complicate Jake and Poppy’s ability to fully commit to nurturing, honest relationships. In addition to being disappointed in his own behavior, Jake is still dealing with childhood trauma. He was abandoned by both of his parents — for different reasons and under vastly different circumstances. He believes he has forgiven his father, and they have re-established their relationship, largely because his father dotes on and adores Billy and being a grandfather. But Jakes’s complicated, tangled emotions fuel his outward ambivalence and inner still-simmering anger and resentment toward his lascivious father.
Poppy met Sam when she was photographing a wedding and they fell into a relationship quickly and easily. He was “sure of himself” and Poppy found it “easy to go along with him,” so she “let him carry her over his shoulder into a relationship.” Poppy has, until recently, deferred to Sam’s decision-making, letting him have his way and believing “she wanted his way, too.” Within their relationship, Jake is “the patriarchy,” a fact Poppy has recently recognized and begun railing against, angering Sam in the process and initiating arguments.
Storey illustrates how an unexpected life change – in Poppy’s case, Dandelion’s death, and for Jake, the dissolution of his marriage and family life – destroys equilibrium and calls core beliefs into question, inspiring reevaluation of choices made up to that point. Storey’s compassionate depiction of her characters makes their journeys compelling and relatable. They are both adrift. The foundations of their lives have been ripped away from them, and they are both searching for a new normalcy that will bring them happiness and satisfaction.
Poppy impetuously responded to Jake’s message, not realizing that by doing so she would hurl herself further into an abyss of grief, mourning, longing, and having to confront the sad truth about her relationship and future with Sam. Can she summon the strength to finally step out of Dandelion’s shadow, strive for what she really wants, and be herself, unapologetically? Jake continues to flounder and make unfortunate choices that jeopardize any shot he might have at a future with Poppy. Can he correct his course and salvage their fledgling romance?
Storey says, “Don’t let the title of my debut novel fool you – Dandelion is Dead is a story about life. Although I wasn’t going to be able to give Poppy back her sister, I could show her that she could still be surprised by the heat and humor of her own life.” And despite all of the entertaining back-and-forth, on-again and off-again, dishonesty, and emotional upheaval her characters endure, Storey manages to do just that through crisp, sometimes hilarious dialogue and a perfectly paced narrative. Every character is fully developed and vividly authentic, and brings dimension and depth to the story. That is especially true of Jetta, Dandelion and Poppy’s best friend. Poppy was mystified by the last disagreement Jetta and Dandelion had. It was particularly and uncharacteristically venomous. Through a surprising plot twist, Storey reveals the depth of Dandelion’s devotion to her sister, and demonstrates how uncomfortable and painful a test of true friendship can be. It constitutes a breakthrough for Poppy, and a seminal juncture in the story.
Ultimately, Jake and Poppy learn a great deal about forgiveness, reconciling the past in order to move forward, and standing in one’s power. Dandelion Is Dead is an accomplished and poignant debut in which Storey relates an achingly sad story about two damaged people whose lives have been transformed by tragedy and mistakes, yet manage to find each other . . . along with hope and love. Dandelion Is Dead is an engrossing and memorable reminder that, as Storey, who lost her best friend at just twenty-years of age, notes, “Love doesn’t end with life.”
Excerpt from Dandelion Is Dead
1
Saturday, 5th April
Poppy
“Hey, lovely lady,” the man in the car called through his window. For a minute, maybe longer, he’d been crawling next to Poppy as she walked home.
Perhaps, if it had been dark, or if she hadn’t been on a road with such fancy houses and coiffed front gardens, Poppy would have presumed she was about to get abducted. Bundled into a boot and kept forever in a cellar on a dirty mattress, listening to a dripping tap. But it was two in the afternoon, and the houses on either side of the street probably had studies where mummies were in meetings talking about content, or wellness. And above them, four bedrooms where children called Arlo and Margot dreamed sweetly every night.
Besides, Poppy was naturally fearful-she’d been born a shade dweller, sprouting in the shadow of her raucous sister. She’d grown in the gaps where Dandelion was lacking, and where Dandelion flourished, Poppy had stayed, quite happily, small. But now she was sisterless and she needed to be braver. So she stopped walking and turned to the car.
Everything about the man in the driver’s seat was gray and middling, including his suit, which had a subtle sheen. Poppy stepped off the curb and was about to say Hello, or something totally normal, but as she bent down-she saw his open fly.
Poppy dropped her phone and it smashed on the tarmac. She looked down at her phone, then she glanced at the man’s penis, then up at a small teddy bear that was hanging from the rearview mirror. The teddy had its tongue out and was holding a faded heart with pink stitching that spelled HUGME! The two words forced together, conjoined into one.
If Dandelion had been there, she would have lurched her whole body through the open window and ripped the man’s head off-Poppy could see her sister doing it-blood gushing up and out of him like a flock of birds in flight. Dandelion would have pointed and gargled a throatful of ridicule. Dandelion would have screamed, scratched, spat. Set his car alight.
Next to Poppy’s face, the man was muttering. He maybe said suck and he definitely said dick.
“No,” Poppy said very quietly, her eyes still on the teddy, then because she was gutless, she added, “But thanks.”
The man floored the accelerator and drove off in a wheelspin with his penis freely lolling. Poppy crouched down to the road and turned over her phone-the screen had splintered into slivers and rainbowed like spilled petrol. It was beyond resuscitation; the buttons didn’t work. She straightened then and squinted at the North London houses all painted perfect like a stage set, with wisteria winding over windows and clematis creeping around doors. The world was gross and could be glorious-but Poppy wasn’t in it. Every day was just a circle, a loop she had to fall through. It had been two hundred and thirty-one days since Dandelion died and, somehow, it was spring again.
Poppy longed to feel the sun.
2
Sunday, 6th April
“Aloha?” Poppy called to the empty hallway of her sister’s flat.
Standing in the kitchen, she unwrapped magenta tulips she’d picked up from the florist on Newington Green, filled a glass jug with water, and nudged the stems around until their configuration pleased her.
“You’re welcome. I thought you’d like them,” she said, carrying the jug to Dandelion’s bedroom and unlocking it. She’d put the lock on so she could rent the flat out as a one bed and leave this room untouched, only the renting still hadn’t happened; she couldn’t bring herself to do it and, besides, she liked to be able to drop in, hang out, and, if need be, hide.
Often she brought flowers, the kind she knew her big sister would coo at: fat-headed dahlias, fleshy peonies, tulips in different pinks. Sometimes she put music on, pulling an unknown record from Dandelion’s vast collection. Or she’d sit with a drink and sink quietly through thought. Twice, both times in the last month, Poppy had stayed the night, sleeping in Dandelion’s bed, trying to dream not only that she was with her sister but that she was her sister-stretching her own soul into Dandelion’s skin.
“I’ve just come for your phone.” Poppy placed the jug of tulips in the center of the dressing table. Through the petals, she could see her reflection in the mirror, slivers of her sister too. “I dropped mine. Exactly, because of that man’s dick.”
From under the bed, she pulled out the box where Dandelion kept her old devices and nests of tangled cables. Her most recent phone was at the top; Poppy had put it there herself after she’d finished the death admin. The closing of bank accounts and resetting of passwords. Putting an out of office on Gmail-writing and rewriting the wording-composing what was, essentially, Dandelion’s out of life.
That whole phase had consumed the previous autumn, and at the time, Poppy hadn’t had the inclination to peruse her sister’s apps, the notes, her messages. She’d been in and out of the phone efficiently, tied up tight with shock. But now Poppy’s grief was a starvation, and so she sat on her sister’s Berber rug and scrolled back in time through the photo gallery, desperate to consume. She marveled at the smiling faces, the dogs, the pubs, the birthdays, the dark blurs of dance floors, the artfully composed plates of food shot from up above. There were so many pictures of Poppy, obviously. Their mother, nearly always in her Levi’s. Their dad-back when he could smile. There were photos, too, of Dandelion topless and looking alluring, pictures for her lovers.
“Sorry!” Poppy said, having found herself in an album full of nudes. She glanced up at the door as if Dandelion was already flying toward her, screaming, Poppet! What the actual fuck?
On the home screen, Poppy tapped into some of the apps: BBC Sounds, Instagram, Net-A-Porter. There was an app for tracking periods, another for tracking investments, and in the middle of them all an icon Poppy wasn’t sure about-a large black H in a stark white square. She lingered her thumb over it, then pressed down to find Dandelion in her sequined harlequin jumpsuit, halfway through a cartwheel. She was at Glastonbury Festival, by The Park stage; Poppy recognized it immediately. She’d been there with her sister that year. In the background was the big colorful ribbon tower, a balding hill, some happily billowing flags. So this, Poppy realized, was Hinge-her sister’s dating app. And here, the digital version of Dandelion was still alive, being cheeky. Securing likes.
Dandelion had shown Poppy some profiles of potential suitors before (mainly the funny ones), but Poppy had never seen her sister’s actual profile, how she marketed herself. It was titled with three sentences that Poppy read a few times, her brain glitching on the facts that were now redundant: Dandelion. 39. Does Not Want Kids.
As well as the Glastonbury photo, there was a close-up of Dandelion in bed looking sleepy, her skin prickling pink like it did when she was just out of a hot bath. In the next one, she was in her neon seersucker swimsuit in a deck chair somewhere exotic, a (probable) Negroni in her hand. In the last picture, Poppy saw herself. It was from a recent-ish Halloween party; the two of them and their friend Jetta had dressed up in vintage Adidas and tucked all their hair up into short, curly wigs. They’d been characters from the film The Royal Tenenbaums; Dandelion was the dad (Ben Stiller), and Poppy and Jetta had been his two matching red-tracksuited little kids.
In Hinge’s inbox, Dandelion had one hundred and seventy-three matches and countless messages. Poppy tapped on a few at random. First, a girl (too young) called Chloe, a dancer. Dandelion had never answered her Sup? To an electrician called Gerald, Dandelion had gone in with Gezza, tell me a joke. He’d come back with one about an Englishman an Irishman and a Scotsman, to which Dandelion had replied immediately: I no like, byebye!
As Poppy scrolled, it became apparent that her sister lied a lot, which was no enormous surprise. She told people she was an exotic dancer and a firefighter and trilingual and super into roller blading-which caused Poppy to huff an appreciative laugh. She gave Hinge’s inbox one final, long swipe so that the names of tiny digital people careered past, like the bounty of a slot machine, before slowing and slowing and coming to rest on Jake.
JAKE
14TH March, 2024. 8:24pm:
Dandelion, (good name)
It’s weird but
I can feel
9:03pm:
Sorry.
my son woke up
He had a nightmare.
But was going to say –
I can feel your heat.
9:17pm:
(my son is three.
Split custody. No biggy)
The messages had been hanging, unanswered, for a year. Poppy liked the sound of Jake; she liked that he’d felt her sister’s heat.
It seemed highly possible that Jake’s main photo was a covert selfie, that he’d extended his arm and looked the other way as he’d taken the picture, pretending not to pose. In it, his hair was buzzed short and his eyes were closed, which maybe was the point, because it showed his eyelashes, top and bottom together, unusually thick and pretty in his square-jawed face. In another picture, he was wearing a faded cap pushed back, his dark hair curled behind his ears. He had dimples, or maybe just the one dimple eddying into his right cheek. His profile said he was forty, but he dressed boyish: sweatshirts, worn-out jeans and trainers.
Mainly, the other men Poppy had seen on Hinge were topless in a toilet taking unsmiling selfies, or Lycra clad and bulging, unsmiling on a bike. But Jake was playing Jenga with his son (captioned My Little Bud), and grinning wide and silly. In the cap picture, he was sitting with friends, holding craft beers in colorful cans on the crest of a hill, and the last shot wasn’t even him, but a handsome sky at dusk.
From a nearby garden the gnawing of an engine started: a mower or a chain saw. Poppy stood, and in front of the long mirror, she looked at herself and frowned. Throughout their whole lives, people had found the sisters to be confusingly similar. And, yes, Poppy knew their eyes (hair, complexion, voice, laugh), and, probably, skeletons, were ostensibly interchangeable, but she’d always felt the comparison to her sister to be overly generous, like comparing a Tuesday morning to a Friday night. Two and a half years older, Dandelion had been more attractive and more confident. More mischievous (nefarious, lightly evil). Later, more successful, pretty much running a hedge fund by the age of thirty-five. Consequently, Dandelion had been considerably more wealthy-bought her gorgeous flat with cash. Mainly, though, and ironically, as it turned out, compared to Poppy and to anyone Poppy had ever met, Dandelion seemed more vital. She’d been filled with much more life.
Poppy smoothed her hair into a ponytail and stepped closer to her reflection. “Yes, thanks, I know I look like shit. I couldn’t sleep, so I ran here.” She thought of her boyfriend then, waking on a Sunday morning to find her gone; he’d be brewing coffee and, quite possibly, a sulk. “Anyway, better go. Thanks for the phone,” she said, through an inhale. Around her the room got bigger, gaped large and painful like an open wound.
In the hallway, Poppy locked the bedroom door and reread Jake’s messages. I can feel your heat kept catching like a splinter, though it didn’t hurt. It was more that the world hurt and this one line felt soothing. It was so true-Dandelion had been a wildfire. She’d ripped through life. She’d frazzled. Poppy closed her eyes and, next to her, she felt her sister scorching. She felt her sister nudging. Daring. “I guess I could . . .” Poppy whispered, and then she was typing through the trembles and they were back together-stealing lip gloss from Superdrug as teenagers. Smoking on the beach, leaning up against red rocks. They were stripping to their knickers and cliff jumping at sunset, falling, flailing, holding hands, catching a few seconds of HOLY FUCK airtime, before smacking hard through black.
DANDELION
6th April, 2025. 8:26am:
Jake!
I’m sorry I’ve not messaged you
I was kind of busy
with, you know,
Life.
But now I’m here
I’m back.
3
Monday, 7th April
Jake
Through half-closed eyes, Jake gazed at Amisha’s hideous, swirling rug as the light in her bedroom moved from black to fuzzy gray. He was wondering how he was going to extract himself without waking her, which, he’d decided, in the long run, was the most polite thing to do. He was almost certain she wouldn’t want to see him again, either, so at least this way no one would have to deal with a face-to-face rejection, or attempt any awkward hungover acting, saying what a great time they’d had.
He shifted slowly until he was leaning up against her rattan headboard. He looked down at the heavy breathing mass of hair; that hair had been the first thing he’d remarked upon on Hinge, and then they’d started messaging and Jake had thought he’d felt that brilliant spark-the one that can go on to burn the house down. Over their three-week courtship, which had, up until last night, been conducted entirely through their mobile phones, Jake and Amisha had shared playlists (him), selfies (her), updates on the minutiae of their day: Just made the best toastie with cheddar and . . . wait for it . . . kimchi! (him), and empowering memes (her). Mainly, Jake had found it lovely to talk to someone so lovely. Someone who kept doing the eye-watering laugh emoji at pretty much everything he typed.
Someone who had instigated text sex, twice.
Having text sex twice was as cutting-edge as Jake’s romantic life had been in the last fifteen months since his divorce. Not that the actual experience had been the smoothest thing in the world, being, as it was, quite hard to maintain the typing, alongside the left-handed wanking, alongside the thinking of good things to say, alongside the manual correct of autocorrect. Still, he’d since dropped the text-sex-twice anecdote into a few different WhatsApp and real-life conversations with a couple of old mates, some colleagues, and, most recently, his dad. It wasn’t Jake’s usual style to be so brash-he just wanted everyone to know how great things were going for him these days. How really, totally great.
Amisha had been in the pub already when Jake arrived, and he’d been pleased to see that she looked almost like her photos. Though when she got up to kiss him, he wasn’t very into her rose petal perfume, or the nasalness of her voice. After twenty minutes of chatting, Jake understood the problem to be simple and yet complicated-Amisha was not the woman he had been expecting; she was not the honey that his mind had, almost entirely, made up.
